choices

At my appointment today, we were disappointed to find that my body hasn't progressed as far as we would have liked it to by now. Inducing where I am now would mean a long labor, and increases the risk substantially for tearing my incision. Rather than risk my life and the baby's, we decided on another cesarean.

Up until this point, I have felt torn. On one side, I felt like having another c-section meant that I was giving up or taking the easy way out. It would also mean that every baby we have from here on will be delivered c-section. On the flip side, however, of course, I didn't want to put this baby at unnecessary risk. Ultimately, I knew that this appointment would bring with it a final decision. I feel both relieved and at peace. Trying for a VBAC brought with it a lot of open-ended questions that we simply wouldn't know until labor progressed. Now I can push all those aside and simply enjoy the birth of my baby boy!

Plus, I get to choose his birthday, too! We'll be checking into the hospital at 6:30 tomorrow morning, and my surgery is scheduled for 8:00 am. May 8 looks like a good day for a birthday!